I'm just going to rant about whatever shit comes to mind. I haven't had a good rant in... how long? Anyways.

School's surprisingly going well for me. But, my heart is still torn into pieces. Not from the obvious whore who fucked me over, but, from someone else who has no clue how I feel. Pathetic. I know. But, this person makes me happy, invited me in when I was alone back in the day, and I don't know. Was an overall good person to me. I feel like I'm nothing to this person most of the time and that's why I'm torn up. I want to be there but, I know for a fact, he doesn't want me there. So, I don't interfere, and I keep my mouth shut as to not hurt this person even more. I have no clue if this person knows who they are, but I don't care right now. I don't know if he'll still keep me as a friend since he knows now, or just push me right away and be sickened that the likes of me really cares for him. I'd chose the last option myself. But, I hope that he'll choose the first.

The Christmas Prom is tomorrow and I hope that I can go. I CAN go, I just need the drive. I think I have the drive. Was certain I do. I hope I still do... I'm just hanging out with random people there. I really wanted to go with someone, but yeah. It's just a dance, so I didn't bother getting hurt from all the rejections, over a dance. I just want to go to see people and hang out. But, I think I did ask someone. There was no real answer. It was a "No" from the beginning, so I wasn't overly surprised. This person didn't have to say anything, I got the hint.

I hope that next weekend's still planned. I really don't want that to change. Just haning with a few friends eating pizza and stuff. I can't stand being home on the weekends, or else I know I'd do something that I'd regret. I love hanging out with these people to. It should be fun like last weekend when we were at the movies and just drove around.

Anyways. This was a pointless journal and no one has to care for a word I said. I just needed to rant. I'm signing off. See yaz.

PS:

Go visit my friend, Patrick. He just joined. Great stuff.